Repost: "Dear Me"

Most definitrly had to repost this one...

Written by: Taunya Stroman

I owe you an apology. I'm sorry for doubting you and for under estimating you. I'm sorry for letting a good man go and holding on to one that wasn't. I'm sorry for staying when I should have left and for leaving when I should have stayed. I'm sorry for settling for less than the best. I'm sorry for not being there for you. I'm sorry for giving my love to someone who didn't love me back. I'm sorry for giving my power away to someone who didn't deserve it. I'm sorry for wasting time that I know I won't ever see again. I'm sorry for the lies and the drama that I created unnecessarily. I'm sorry for burning bridges that I know that I won't ever be able to cross again. I'm sorry for not believing in you and I'm sorry for not trusting you. I'm sorry for loving someone else more than I loved you. I'm sorry for not realizing soon enough that I couldn't make someone love me, when they weren't capable of it. I am sorry for holding on too long to things that were trying to destroy us. I'm sorry that I turned into a "runner" and losing the strength to fight. I'm sorry for hiding behind the scars of the past and not moving on. I'm sorry for the verbal abuse and the self-doubt that kept holding us back. I'm sorry for ever thinking that we wouldn't make it. I'm sorry for beating you up unnecessarily and I'm really sorry for every time I sabotaged a situation because I thought that we would surely die if I didn't trust you. I'm sorry for trying to explain myself when no words were necessary. I'm sorry for overthinking every situation instead of just being still. I'm sorry that I forgot where we came from and for not remembering who we could really trust. I'm sorry that I let others people's opinions, comments and negativity distract us from our purpose. I'm sorry that I didn't turn on my filter and not say some words that I will never be able to take back. I'm sorry for not putting my best foot forward because I thought that we couldn’t win. I'm sorry for telling people our business when I knew I should have kept it to myself. I'm sorry for hiding in the shadows when I knew we needed the Son. I'm sorry for taking so long to realize that we are worth it and that we deserve the best. I'm also sorry for the self-destructive behaviors that took us years to correct.

Right now I am going to take some time to accept my apology and make a pledge to be better to myself. I deserve better because of the love of my Daddy who sent his Son to die in my stead for a filthy wretch like me. He paid the ultimate price so that I may live freely. I'm taking my power back and I forgive Me and I Love Me!