Honesty Hour: Everyday Struggle Part I

How should I put this?

Do you encounter that people in your life stress you more than they benefit you? childish lies, unkept promises, consistant disappointments?

if the answers yes, then I’m not in the minority here.

You see, I’ve once again stopped and taken inventory of my “associates” and realized that some cause more harm than good. 2012 is my year of prosperity, I’ve already claimed that and in order to prosper you must first change whom you are and what you tolerate.

I like to think that I’m a very easy-going person, I refrain from getting into conflict, (to an extent) and I also give people way too many chances to do right by me. I have flaws and I pointed them out to myself to work on quite awhile ago…but you know what they say, old habits die hard.

I don’t have but so many people in my life, and one of the things that’s become a common struggling point to get across is that I don’t see them at all, or enough. I’ve faced a lot of death over the past several months so I’m very fragile as it comes to life and appreciating people; it means more to me than it ever has. & These people in my life know this already, but regardless if you claim to be close to someone- why do I damn near have to beg you to come see me, make time for each other, or just speak….period? I'm not asking for marriage, money, or wise- your heart or lung for transplant....All I'm asking for is your time, your concern, and your attention. 

….Nothings more precious than time…..

 Like I posted on Facebook:  

"The only people whose life I want to be in are those whom make a genuine, honest effort to be in mine" No sense in keeping people around whom either don't talk to/see you, hit you only when they need something, or who aren't on your level. Make sense? I thought so.”

I cannot change any body’s behavior nor can I make them understand my plight. Every day I walk this earth worrying about people, how they view me, how true they are, or if they even love me like I do them- I’m wasting time they've already proven with their actions there's a disconnect and they do not. 

None of that matters at this point because at the end of my life they won’t be there with me at the gates to vouch for me. Everybody will speak for themselves in front of God and own up to their own lives.

What I can do is focus on what I can control and that’s me. I don’t want to grow bitter or focus so much on being alone that I prevent myself from obtaining true, loving, genuine, and supportive people- so I must do what I have to do…..and that’s walk alone and away from these people.

The struggle isn’t in attempting to maintain or fight for people whom clearly don’t value you like they should. The struggle is in learning that not everyone that’s with you is for you and it’s up to you to allow god to show you which people they are.

I looked around over the past few days and realized none of these people I’m referring to in this honesty hour are worth fighting for because their actions don’t prove to be genuine. So I’m gonna confront them, let them know how i feel. if they change so be it, if they don't so be that. I'm learning, I’m walking, and I’m going away.

I’ma let Faith & Raekwon give you more insight…..