Honesty Hour: Self Doubt is a disease....Part I

This Honest Hour is Brief,

I found myself doubting my ability to become a published writer last night as I sat on my bed looking at a story I had submitted to a potential publishing company. I wanted to pull up yahoo, compose a new email, and resign from the project because I was so frustrated at the going-ons and how the situation (at least for me) turned from sweet to pure bitterness.

Please know, My heart is in writing. I LOVE to write.

You can’t tell me that’s not what God put me here for…period. So when obstacles get in my way, I get extremely Cynical and often worrisome.

I may not use the best grammer, nor appeal to every single auidience in the world. That's nothing that cannot be improved with a few more course in school or even reading a few reference materials.

Waking up with that same anger and frustration only made things worse. Until I prayed…

After praying I came to the conclusion that

1.       I am a writer, weather published or not. No one can take that blessing away.

2.       Nobody on this earth tells a story the way I can.

3.       One person’s opinion of my work, does not define me.

4.       Ignorance should not be celebrated. PERIOD.

I looked over my work and realized the tips and pointers I received, although communicated IMHO unprofessionally, were indeed correct. I've since gotten myself together, changed what was necessary, and believe my story with my own wording is still a very solid and engaging depiction of a real life event that I’ve had happen to me but is still difficult to speak on.

Am I going to let small obstacles stop me or people from being what I was put on this earth to be? F*ck NO!

I’m submitting my work, walking away with my head held high, and letting God take control of the situation. If I make it, I Make it. If I Don't, Look out cuz there's another opportunity coming.

I allowed someone and their audience to deter my own vision of myself. that will never happen again.
I will never allow someone to dim the light of my dream...

                 Remember ladies and gentlemen.

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.

Remember always that you not only have the right to be an individual, you have an obligation to be one.

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.

~All Quotes by Eleanor Roosevelt.